%% i'M evEryThINg I'M bEcuZ u luV mE %%
1 of e lines in 1 of my fav song..its by celine dion..old song la..but i felt tt e lyrics were gd...hehe come to tink of it..i'm realli beri lucky..i haf a lovin bf,a caring mum(although 2 bratty bros hehe),a group of supportive fwens..wat more can i ask 4??haha mayb more $$ ba..hehe whu wun ask 4 tt??i aso dunno y suddenly todae i so sentimental..write all these things lehz..haha juz wanna take tiz chance to thank every 1 4 being there 4 me..*muackz*hahha

went out to drink coffee wif christine todae..haha we haf nt realli met up after we grad..she's buzy wif her studies n i'm buzy wif work..besides her classes r at nite so our timetable realli clashes la..its a pity ya noe..cannot meet up often..anyway tok alot when we met todae..hehe e past,e present n future..hahah..showed her my "love letters"hahah well..expected la..she n i haf e same reaction after readin it lor..anyway,its past le,i juz wanna put e matter behind me n move on i realli dun understand y plp juz like to bug me..i mean,get a life!!move on..it was so sad tt things come to tiz stage ya noe??readin e letters brings bak painful memories tt none of us wish to be reminded of..i noe tt there will alwayz be plp givin me support,but den i still feel stress lehz..wonder wat to reply..hehe i haven reply yet cuz i beri stress at work le i realli no energy to tink on a reply..in e end,christine wrote 2 sentences on e reciept n told me to reply like tt..hahah crap


as i sat in front of my pc tying tiz entry,i was aso lookin at e puzzle infront of me..e puzzle given to me on my 20th birdday,e 1 tt realli touch me cuz they went to greath lengths to get it done...tt present i treasure so much so much even after tt incident i didnt bear to keep it away as advised..lookin at it will alwayz remind me how fragile friendships can be also at e same time how happie we was at e point of time when e pic was taken..n how time cannot be turned bak to make tings rite n haf a happie endin...maybe life is juz like tt..full of ups n downs,full of laughters n tears..full of hopes n regrets..but still i'm beri grateful tt i still haf those fond memories tt will be wif me 4ever no matter wat happen..it was e happiest time of my whole sch life,e most carefree time of my life n its here tt i learn how to put things behind me n move on instead of dwellin on it..it makes me stronger n yes it makes me treasure friendships more den ever..i cannot say i've lost more den i gain or gain more den i lost becuz in tiz incident,i saw many fwens givin me support n encouragement n make me realise there r alot whu cares 4 me..at e same time i've lost an important person whu makes up a big part of memories in my poly life..without tiz person,mayb my poly life will nt be as interestin..we've been thru thin n thick,ups n downs together..given each other support,suggestions encouragements etc..bring laughters to every 1 in out silly way...smtimes tells jokes tt onli we noe wat is it bout..mayb if none of tiz had happen we will remain tiz way till old,when we will attend each other's weddin,tellin each other's kids all those toopid stories,comparin n fightin as usual over those insignificant things..i realli do haf tiz picture in mind when i was in poly..n it makes me wanna luff out when i tink of it..memories is realli sweet isnt it??


u noe,smtimes i keep askin myself wat am i holdin on to actually,was it my ego or pride??deep down actually i oredi let go of e incident le..was even prepare to forgive n forget if there was anything to forgive n forget to start wif..watever la..anyway e main point is nt to haf any more troubles n juz graduate happily..but smtimes things dun happen in e way we wish 4..1 of them got more overboard n start makin hurtful remarks tt i neber knew e person was capable of..every 1 was shock at e sudden change..actually alot of things wasnt even worth mentionin..like christine told me de..juz move on cuz i've seen e true colours of tiz person n its nt worth to feel sad...but its easier said den done..it took me realli quite awhile b4 i gave up..tried to get bak at 1st but when i found out tt it was an wishful tinkin on my part,i finally woke up fr tiz little nightmare n realli moved on..its been mths since i last heard fr tiz person n suddenly e letter seems like a little prank..haha i realli cannot bring myself to 4get e hurtful remarks in particular 1 to e reference of my family(e most important thing in my life)..nw wat wish 4 is hope tt tiz person will juz leave me alone..i dun wish to get in between them le..i opt out of tiz friendship..mayb i'm selfish n its gonna be unfair to e other person in tiz incident..but 4 e gd of me,i realli haf no choice..plz...lets juz keep things e way it is nw...nite..